A Quick Thought...
Starting over in my 30s and expressing my inner child
Yes, here is another article about being more adventurous and taking more risks in your life because I am in a new state of mind. I have listened to numerous podcasts, watched documentaries and read a few books that have changed my perspective of my life. In previous articles I have written about my struggles with my career, building relationships, caring about how other people view me and losing my dreams.
In my 20s, I graduated a month before a pandemic swept across the world and killed so many people. It also shut everyone’s life down and caused a setback in society. This setback included health professionals leaving their jobs due to burnout and witnessing so many people die by themselves. The education system was finding ways to adapt to having to still educate kids but changing to using technology. That has impacted the lack of intellectual advancement among kids. The same pandemic also shined a light on how people, mostly Americans, hate to be inconvenienced, but how some of us think so individualistically that, so many were willing to sacrifice their own life and others around them for some normalcy. The pandemic also made me realize that the government that service the people no longer cared about the safety of those people. This is how I started my life after college… If you want to learn more about the career path I went down in my 20s, read my goodbye letter to sports.
Now that I have entered my 30s, I am taking some time after losing my job to figure out what type of lifestyle I want and what interested me before leaving college. The way I have been doing this is by visualizing the life that attracts me, understanding how my mind works and figuring out what activities or work drains me but also what type of things pour into me. In my 20s, I took some leaps, but they weren’t big jumps. I chased what might excite others if they saw me doing them, but I didn’t chase things that truly interested me. Now it is time to dig deep within myself and to start experiencing life the way that grounds me but also pushes me to dream bigger.
I have eight months to dominate this year, experience life and to be revolutionary. I am over suppressing my thoughts, emotions, personality and ambitions. I am catching my second wind and burning the bridges that never should’ve been built. I want to be a part of meaning for change and powerful movements that hold horrible people accountable while we create services for those who are being left behind. This is not the time to be small. This is the time to speak up, live and to create good trouble. Those who make the most amazing impact on the world are those who never stopped pushing back. Now I know everything takes time, but I will no longer waste time either. I would rather be moving in the right direction than be stuck in the same machine.
